The bums, the homeless, the drunks sheep walk through the streets, scavenging for a dime and a drink, mumbling mind madness like a string pulled from their gullets with words upon it, expressed in slurry monotone mumbles, where the only difference in pitch comes from an anger that erupts sporadically like a volcano with hiccups.
I wonder if I’ve become jaded and tainted by seeing this so frequently, no longer do I make eye contact or pass change with a smile. Now, I deny their presence. I walk by as though the mumbling mad men and cracked out angry eye rolling, teeth grinding women do not exist.
I mention this one afternoon, walking with a wonder flower on a mission down the mission, as a zombie in ripped clothes, moves towards us with an outstretched hand. He doesn’t get his feed, our feet move by him quicker than he can literally blink.
“Instead of giving spare change, what if everybody saved it and put it together to open up a space where hot meals could be prepared and given out daily.”
“Exactly! I don’t give them anything,” she says, stomping forwards. “People say they are against Bush and all he stands for, but then they support it by throwing money to these guys who will head straight to the liquor store or crack dealer.”
There is a way to change.
I’m in the middle of a bunch of hippies on a joyride through the city. I listen to stories of getting drunk, so fucking wasted, puking and falling in it and my mind spins. These kids aren’t twenty. They’re not new to this malarkey. There’s some kind of rotten stench of a contradiction in the beliefs of, Wake up! Wake up! Wake up world, when there are wishes to fall asleep by noon, floating away in a bottle of gin. There is a way to change and things are beginning to move, but it has to be at a higher level.
The jingle jangle gypsy Jew and the sparkle eyed hippie share their ideas and visions, which shines a light through the midnight rain. We sip coffee and tea, eating cake in a diner down the Castro talking philosophy, sustainability and love through the night.
“She’s writing a book about love.” says the jingle jangle gypsy Jew.
“That’s great.” smiles the sparkle eyed hippie. “I believe love is seeing each other. I mean, really seeing one another. Everything else is bullshit.”
“You mean, without the layers, the façade, the ego?” I ask.
She nods wide eyed like a rabbit, a rabbit munching cheese cake.
“It’s harder now because the culture has changed, it’s becoming more individualistic. People look for love and connection in all these other places in the outside world. When a community is formed the basic need of being together is met, so there’s more contentment and love. Instead of individualism, we should all be tapping into the one big consciousness.” says jingle jangles, warming her hands on the steaming coffee cup in front of her.
Talks of finding land and beginning communities brings joyful bounces and happy hands willing to help, that high five in union, in agreement that there is a way to change.
Needed is a team, a team of lovers whose first priority is helping the land and the souls who roam it without excess, addiction or paranoia distorting visions. Rising above the ego in all its slippery sneaky guises is a major freaking plus. The fame of being a hero on the other side of the tracks, the political activist lost in political activism, the labels that are slapped upon us by others to kill, to still their fear of the unknown, labels we slap upon ourselves when we pat our backs, well done, only cover up the true meaning of why we are here.
There is a way to change and the pieces are slowly coming together as likeminded lovers collaborate and create with a balance of theory and action and logic and dream.
Make.Love.Share.Love.Be.Love